Prepare yourself

So I talk about the power of the mind, self help is out there, we offer yoga but what is really going on? Everywhere I turn there are events for raising awareness, saving the earth, help our community, donate blood. So many different ways to make a difference in the world and things are happening and we all would choose healthier over not healthier. Why do so many people resist? We can all make excuses till the day end but really is there anything more important than health?

As I begin my afternoon training with my compatriot and with the master a defiant anger wells up inside of me. He asks me join in the group and I willfully resist without making eye contact, pretending I didn't hear him. Again he requests and again I deny him. I realize to late that I've allowed my selfish anger to rule my actions and now I am going to have to face him. As a good master he wants to know why I would be so insubordinate. I look for the easy way out but there's no chance and the frustration pours out. I never thought I would fall prey to the usual student anger for ignorance of the master's method. I've always prided myself on understanding the principle of Master, that the method usually exceeds the student's comprehension. I didn't foresee that I would expect the master to be perfect and more then a human.

It is our ego and expectation of what life should be that separates us from healing ourselves in light of what is. As Americans we always demand proof before respect. Maybe it happens in other cultures too, but I know the U.S. and we don't take any one's word for nothing.

We continued our practice after a simple rebuking but it took me a whole hour to release my attachment to my anger. "Who is this petty emotion serving?", I finally asked myself. Because I was so busy holding onto that emotion and not letting our energies connect I missed out on the essence of my training. There will be a next time but that moment is now lost and the time wasted in one aspect. In another I have learned a good lesson the hard way.